First of all, I want to thank you for spending a few minutes reading what I have to say. I would have liked to adress all of you much earlier, but I've spent a week at the hospital due to a severe anxiety attack. I'm now much better, though, and back at home at last. That said, let's start.
I am the nephew my uncle talked about a couple weeks before. And, as he stated, I am the actual creator of this account, as well as the person who fullfills the SFM requests and did the AI-Related contents.
I am against taking hard, general measures, as it always happens that the ones who feel bad and in need of apologizing are those who are the farthest from being the curlprits, while those who caused the situation in the first place remain silent, watching the situation they caused unfold, probably even enjoying it. Before continuing, I want to apologize myself and in my uncle's behalf to those who commented in the previous journal, telling me they're sorry for something they didn't do at all. You deserve a 'thank you' instead of a rant, and that's what I want to give to you.
This adventure started the day I learnt how to animate. My favourite pokémon had been Raichu since 15~20 years prior to that, and, obviously, as soon as I was able to, I started to create animations with him. However, soon, the shift was changed to making requests, giving people a way to bring to reality what they had in their minds the best way I could.
Many of the first year's improvements were developed towards this goal, to be able to pull out more animations. The more requests, the better. And, like that, the waitlist grew from 3-4 requests to a record of 18. I would have one done each 9-12 days on average. I wasn't yet aware of it, but I had just found my REAL essence.
However, soon, I started to walk out of the right path, by trying to branch out to different, less-value paths, like AI, which made me pull gradually aside the requests. This was blatantly unfair for all of you, and I'm really sorry about that. Soon, the times increased, and the quality decreased, which made many of you leave, reducing the waitlist to the current size. This was a warning call, but I ignored it.
And, as it happens in life, those who want to drive blindfolded can only do so until they crash. I gradually started to pull more and more efforts into AI developments, forgetting the REAL reason I was here at first, until I was ignored by two Raichu fangroups in the span of three days, and other, more engaged people easily supassed in a whiff all the efforts I had done in that time. I wasn't up to the height, and it took such revealing facts to make me notice I was wrong all the time.
Look, I won't start a war about what one must have to be able to submit Raichu-centered commisions in any place. There are much better people who already center their efforts in this fantastic character, and I have no rights in trying to compete/help/whatever with them, even if involuntarely, by submitting Raichu content myself. It might be the content I'm most passionate about, but the world doesn't neccessarily have to comply with it, and, given the recent turn of events, it is clear it is not valued at all. It's not that I'm hurt that my Raichu submissions aren't valued by the community, I just need some time to accept I'm not well-considered at all inside the Raichu fandom, and try to move on.
So, from now on, I will turn back to what YOU really valued from me, the requests, while leaving basically everything else I was myself interested in behind, in favor of what really matters. I think there's a reason for everything to happen in life, and my existence in the furry fandom is to help you, not flooding the webpages with what I think is good.
Just give me a sec to get things back on track, and I'll re-activate the waitlist very soon. Again, sorry for the delay all this fuss has caused. Thank you for your understanding. I might detach from what I liked, but, rest assured, I'm far from over.
See you very soon!
